I became aware of a certain
stereotype of blogs after my mission:
the new wife brags about her husband, maybe a baby & about their wonderful life. I did not want to become that blogger.
Mostly because it might have something to do with my instinct of
'over-honesty'. The same instinct that leads to my real answers when someone says "How are you?". This question is asked everyday in greeting. But how many people are really wondering how the other is? Oftentimes the greeting is sludged into one: HiHowAreYa? But sometimes, they don't even expect an answer. For some reason, it is hard for me to answer with the typical "GoodHowAreYou?" reply. When people ask how I am, I want to tell them. But every now and then, as I unravel how I'm really feeling, I also get the feeling it's way more than they expected when they first asked the question. So... naturally, I thought my blog might just really tell you how I am.
The good, the bad and the ugly.{Here's the ugly: I've had a cold for over a week now and my nose is CHAPPED.}
And I thought I'd tell it like it is: I'm not happy all the time. I get offended and I offend others. Sometimes I don't do what I know to be right. My life isn't perfect. My marriage isn't perfect.
Even Provo is not perfect.But that was back when I didn't understand.
It was after reading a NY Times article on Stephanie Nielsen that I understood.
(Read the last paragraphs.)Of course. No one's life is perfect. No one's marriage is perfect. We are all human & we're all on different levels, different courses and paths. So I have a new respect for those blogs I mentioned before - the new wives bragging. They are focusing on the
beauty. And this new online show-off realm of blogging has become an outlet for the positive. Maybe it can really motivate the positives in our life. It can motivate hope.
And
HOPE is a commandment.
So here's hoping for a more good, less bad & ugly life. This blog, and several other good habits (2009 goals), will be the means.
As my mother said,
"2008 was sure great, but 2009 will be divine!"